Dini Diwayani Novitasari

Minggu, 28 November 2010

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okay, I'm getting stressed because of her, this fucking easy-come-easy-go love torments me a loooot. who is she?

Her name is Dini Diwayani Novitasari
I won't show you her photos but if you notice this post, you'll find her photos easily -____-

You know, I've already had a girlfriend, and I feel convenient with her.
So don't think this is the third person or I am targeting another girl to get -___-
I just feel tormented and fucked, because the girl who I said on my title is my FIRST LOVE.
I love her so motherfucking much, but we're in a different way, so I choose to STOP chasing her, be realistic, I'm not for her, I don't deserve and not capable to be with her

okay firstly I'll tell you about first impression and the story beforeeeee...

dulu..... pas gue masih kelas 5 SD, gue les bahasa Inggris di LPIA, dan suatu ketika, pas gue udah naik tingkat ke Foundation 2, ada anak baru bernama Dini Diwayani Novitasari.
Awalnya sih gue biasa aja, not impressed, ya jaman dulu gue cuek sama cewek sekalipun cantik (sebenernya sampe skrg jg gitu, cuma jaman dulu lebih cuek hahaha)
tapi lama kelamaan, gue jadi pada rasa gimana gitu, kayak rasa naksir, ya mungkin namanya jaman dulu kan cinta monyet gitu
tapi pas gue udah masuk SMP, padahal gue udah naksir orang lain, tapi pas gue ketemu dia, selaluuuu aja feeling itu ada, sampe akhirnya ternyata dia masuk SMP yg sama kayak gue, tambah menjadi deh

gue selalu ngerasa grogi tapi nyaman gimana gitu deket dia, ya sudah lah gue pikir.

sampe pas gue lulus SMP, gue nyadar kalo gue tuh kayaknya udah cinta banget banget banget sama dia, sampe dia bales sms gue aja tuh udah bener2 seneng banget deh guenya.
sampe akhirnya pas di SMA gue naksir orang lain dan pacaran (untuk pertama kalinya di hidup gua hahaha), dan gue bener2 lupa sama dia. tapi gue pacaran gak begitu lama
cuma 2 bulanan gitu, karena gue niat ngejar IPA. tapi sambil gue ngejar IPA, gue kembali ngerasa perasaan gue ke Dini (setiap gue liat foto atau paling parah.... kalo ketemu orangnya), dan akhirnya gue memutuskan untuk nunggu waktu yg pas buat nembak dia. ada sekitar 6 cewek waktu itu yg minta gua jadi pacar, tapi gatau kenapa gue bener2 stuck di Dini.
sampe gue nembak dia dan ditolak, gue bener2 mutusin buat bener2 ngubur jauh2 perasaan gue sama dia, harus kubur sedalem2nya

sampe gue akhirnya bisa naksir sama cewek lain, tapi ya gak ada yg mau nerima gue jg (nasiiiiiib -____-)
sampe akhirnya gue LDRan sama seseorang nun jauh di sana (lebay), dan gue bener2 jatuh cinta sama cewek ini karena dia yg bener2 gue banget deh, dan dia jg ngertiin perasaan gue ke Dini. tapi seketika abis itu Dini malah berubah jadi baik, asik, bahkan seru deh. ya ampun kenapa gak gini dari dulu, gak pacaran jg gapapa asal kyk gitu gue juga seneng, tapi tetep aja gue udah punya pacar jadi dia harus gue buang jauh2 dari hidup gue, dan gak lama, dia udah punya pacar, dan gue jadi..... a bit broken lah. jealous jg sama pacarnya itu, tapi ya gue bukan siapa2, ya jadi kesel sama diri sendiri hahaha
sampe gue putus sama dia dan pacaran sama orang lain pun, perasaannya masih ada, bahkan sampe sekarang.
tapi gue udah sangat menyadari jalan gue sama dia itu beda, kita jg udah punya masing2, gue jg gak bener2 ngejar dia, karena gue ngerasa gak pantes buat dia
gue gak pernah ngejar2 lagi. gua gak tau apa yg akan terjadi di ke depannya, kalo gue berjodoh sama dia atau sama orang lain, cuma Allah yang tahu.

punkska

Kamis, 25 November 2010

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DREAM CODE: 8.11.2010

Minggu, 07 November 2010

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I was in the highest floor of the world, lying on my bed as a patient, where the sunset lights heat me earlier. And suddenly when I saw down there, there was 67 SHS field but in unusual location, and it got no sunshine because there's a building (in front of me there's a building, field in my right sight, and the sun is on the top left of the building (in my view)
I saw Qhisti, pushed my old old old friend Vivi but Vivi with different face. When Q pushed V, I saw she made and eye-contact with Lala. And then I lied myself on bed and I saw the sun was shining so bright, then the doctor came and that was Ms. Bekti, my computer lecturer when I was take a court on LPIA.
Then I've taken by her to the lowest ground, I stopped in a floor, and then continued to the lowest ground.
Until I got the lowest, its environent like dirgantara where I bought pop ice.
There were many people, lying in a... (kayak tempat berjemur gt), and under their butts, there were a button who can change as a Donald Duck or as a Chipmunk, I thought it was Alvin. And from many row, I chose one, 3 from the left, the middle one got DD, the right one got Alvin, and the left got a pogo jumper, I don't know how to describe it.

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Gue (sbnrnya bukan gue, seperti org lain tp ntar jd gue lg tau2), terjun dr lantai tertinggi gua tadi, gila berasa mau mati. Dan gua pake kursi roda gt, parasut kanan rusak, akhirnya pake parasut kiri eh tau2 udah dkt jalanan trus gua masuk kayak lobang pekerjaan gt, di situ ada orang di balik saringan pasir nawarin pekerjaan "mau gak kerja? gak capek", gua dgrin sambil nyemen bagian kanan atas saringan.
Trus tau2 gua lg kecelakaan di terowongan gt, dgn view single filming, nabrak something gt lah, dan gua di bawa ke rumah sakit, di situ gua rasanya sesek bgt, dan lemes, dan ada yg cerita dan gua pun jg jd tau bahwa Sora Aoi (tapi mukanya bukan) menderita kayak bengek juga, dia diduga kena gt gara2 gakuat sm etos kerja jepang yg workholic, dan dia jd susterholic apa kalo gak salah, dan tiba2 gua punya pemandangan sebuah gua berair tapi sesaat
Gua liat bokap gua di luar kaca ruangan gua, trus dia bilang janji mau nyembuhin gua padahal gue bengek banget gini, trus gua dibawa ke ruangan gt (-memories low-) skip...

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Di terowongan yang tadi, orang2 ngecek video kecelakaan, ternyata gua jatoh, terus ditabrak, terus ada orang lain ditabrak jg gt, trus di luar terowongan, mirip keadaan lingkungan Daybreaker gt, langit malemnya agak kebiruan, di situ tiba2 ada zombie, tp lelet bgt, tau2 ada mobil polisi sejenis apa yah, blazer gt lah tp bagian kacanya panjang mirip ambulans, di atas lampu depan ada senjata gt, dan di atas pintu depan kiri ada senjata nembak berputar2, zombie2 mati

(-memories down-)

(bangun2 gua ngerasa sesek di dada, sesek napas gt, tiba2 gua ngerasa mimpi gua harus ditulis, dan sampe gua kelar nulis, gua msh ngerasa sesek)